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Hi! I'm Haley. Let's get to it. 🗣️​

What I Know.

I know I know so many things – how to maximize cash back, how to get more credit card points, how to maximize your credit card benefits, how to invest, how to use your HSA, how to get a higher APR on your savings account and lower APR on your credit card, how to check your credit score...the list goes on.

What I don't know: what I want to do next and what I want to do with my life. I avoid these questions like the plague. This stems from being deemed a person in college who always “knew things” – I know a little about a lot. A jane-of-all-trades, master of none. While this has served me well in being able to hold a conversation about, well, anything, it has also contributed to crippling self-doubt and self-consciousness. What do you get when you’re good at a little? No depth and feeling like a fraud 90% of the time. No one “thing” that’s yours or a specific, solitary goal you’re striving to reach. Don’t get me wrong: I have no problem with setting goals, having motivation, goals to accomplish in this one short life, or things I'm known for. As a 90s child who was fed constant chatter about ~chasing your dreams~ and you can be ANYTHING you want to be — a doctor, an astronaut, a judge, or the President (lol jk), it makes it hard when none of those appeal to you. No matter what, I'm just a gal that wants to be rich, have a horse and a few dogs, and be successful, no matter how that looks.

Horses and dogs aside, what if you have no idea what dream you have, much less want to chase? Any time I think about turning to a role with defined paths — taking the LSAT, going to law school, practicing law, becoming a judge, anything with y = mx + b⁽¹⁾ involved, it seems too safe and well, boring. Not shading my future lawyers, and feel free to mail me this post care of delivery if that's what I end up doing, but it's the knowing I could take a defined path that turns me off. My path hasn't been linear thus far, so why start now? The path I want to take is curving, winding, and requires stepping through the 7 layers of the Candy Cane Forest like Buddy the Elf. It's fun to type this because I live my life by color-coordinated planners, to-do lists, and yearly excel spreadsheets filled with goals, and what I just typed is the opposite. Considering I would love a mathematical formula to plan my life out, I know one doesn't exist — but thankfully, this isn't a topic I can blame on my abysmal math skills.

All this to say, I have no idea what's next. As my best friend MacBoone once said, "I want this [semester] to be like the part in movies where they play the upbeat music and I start doing things really fast". C'est moi! I've successfully procrastinated on setting 2023 goals outside of money, horses, and health, (new blog title? TBD) because I have no idea what my life will look like at the end of this year, and for once I'm ok with that. But fear not dear reader, goals like the header of this post will always exist — shoutout to 19-year-old Haley and her amazing manifesting skills.

Since I have access to the internet and tools to pen my thoughts, this will be one-part discourse, one-part hacks I use in life, one-part musings, and above all else, a steady section of "things I think about a lot / will think about forever". Thankfully, the below quote is here to kick us off. Thanks in advance for making it this far and as Shannon Sharpe would say, "don't let these fools fool you now".

(1) Weren’t expecting that were you?! In the interest of honesty, I did originally type it as mx + y = b, which should sum up my entire grade school math career. I still can't believe they let me be an investment banker!

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